Carole Radziwill Speaks On Her "Wonderfully Strange" and Wildly Emotional Real Housewives of New York City Journey

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The Real Housewives of New York City followed Carole Radziwill and Dorinda Medley to London and there was no shrieking or arguments, but there was a little crying. However, those tears went along with a touching and emotionally charged journey, one you've never seen—and will probably never see again—on Real Housewives of any city.

It all started when Carole was told she needed to pick up her late husband's ashes since the church they were housed in was sold and turned into condos. Carole took Dorinda—or Doris, as she was known in this episode—along for the ride and the two had some really great moments where viewers could truly see them bonding. Carole went to get the ashes herself, as she should have.

"I'm kind of producing this whole story in my head, I don't have all the pieces and I don't have all the dialogue," Carole said. "I've obviously never done this before—I don't know anyone who has ever done this before. It's making me a little anxious."

But she did it, and all sorts of memories came flooding back, something Carole called both "poignant" and "uncomfortable."

"I never thought I'd have to come back and get it…You never met my husband, but he had a very highly developed sense of humor and he was quite the practical joker, so when I read the email from the secretary, I thought, ‘OK, this is something that Anthony would really appreciate'—me having to come back," Carole said. "This is probably the biggest practical joke he could play on me from beyond."

While meeting with the priest at the church, Carole got very real. Probably the most real viewers have ever seen her—but if you've read her memoir, What Remains, you know. "I do wish we had one more day to tell him that I'm OK and he's OK, but you don't get that one more day," she said. "I'd just like one more day. That's all. Just one."

Back in her hotel, she lay next to the urn and strapped on her headphones. The waterworks began. "I was very happy to hold it again. It had been 15 years," she said.

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